Taken

This post was supposed to be all about that wedding day... the duchess and Duke of Dublin uniting their hearts in front of family and friends. But life took a different, tumbling and painful turn. The greatest joy of marrying the love of my life was followed by the greatest sorrow of losing my FIRST love of my life, my sweet baby boy Tyson, who on July 26 passed away from cancer at 11 years old. It was late in the evening when he fell asleep in my arms and the world around me fell apart, leaving behind a dark, gaping, screaming hole that burrowed itself down deep in my chest... Grief. A feeling I have never felt before but been terrified of, has taken me as its host, clinging on to my ribcage, brooding in the dark, feeding on my soul. I cant believe he is gone. Set fire to the world!!!... I want him back! Do what you want to me but please give him back! Who am I without you?... Everything happens for a reason - Denial, anger, bargaining, depression, acceptance. I have had to...